bitterdiva

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Bitterdiva doesn’t like doctors - that’s why she avoids them at all cost. Sometimes you can’t avoid doctors, no matter how hard you try or how hard you think you’re capable of withstanding some illness. Pain will tear a person apart and leave you huddling on the floor praying that some deity remove the pain at all costs, including and praying for death.

I hooked myself up with an appointment for the surgeon who comes highly recommended from highly credible sources – Phase 2 complete. Phase 3 is surgery, which surprisingly, is scheduled for Monday, March 24. It’s amazing to think that 2 years ago from that date I was in NYC having fun with my family at the wedding of my cousins and recouping from a broken foot. Last year, well that was a bad year, but I was suffering from some stomach illness. This year I guess, I shall continue two trends of mine: one: being ill in March and two: spending my spring break from classes in some kind of long and involved medical procedure.

How am I coping you may ask? I think I’m handling things properly. I decided on such a fast date so that I only have 6 days of worrying to occupy me rather than several months along with getting better in time for my vacation to Ireland. One of the most disconcerting and frightening things I will have to do in my entire life is give up complete control of my body. That scares me more than I think I let on. It’s not the allowing people to prod my body while unconscious that worries me; it’s the littlest things like, what is the possibility of me taking a deuce on the operating table? Is being under like being asleep where somewhere inside I still have muscle control? Do you dream when you’re under? Am I going to boot from the anaesthesia?

Trying to look on the bright side of things, I get a week off to do pretty much nothing. I’ll be hanging out mostly with my mother and Kris – that should be fun. It’s a good thing I have a DVD player in the computer, that’ll be getting a workout. Of course, this means I’m going to have to spend most of my free time organizing my dungeon of doom.

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Posted by: Kristian at March 20, 2003 10:35 AM

Posted by: groundzero at March 20, 2003 10:44 AM

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